Interesting read:
backreaction.blogspot.com
Somebody sent this to me last week. Enjoy, have fun!
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Losing control
What I am trying to lose control of?
It was hard for me to make my friend understand why I changed my mind after just one drink? It was not so much of an experience as it was a reflection on what you want to gain through drinking. Have you ever done something crazy, something that really is out of line behavior for you? Like say….Enter a class full of 30 students and shout something really crazy to get their attention! Oops sorry I guess I do that very often now. Although, it took me some time to do that without any thought of a back reaction. Say enter an unknown party and do something really stupid like dancing alone on the floor. That "letting yourself go", and hence losing the control is different from losing your brain’s judging capability. What do you say? This may seem a little self contradictory to most, as doing something out of line usually involves breaking so many complexes a person has. And it requires discipline to change oneself, right? hell no! not always.
I remember, as master’s student we were ragged in girl’s hostel. Not serious kind of ragging at all! They asked me to dance. I was fear struck I could hardly move my feet, damn! I did something really funny and ended up being more embarrassed than ever. Not that I don’t like dancing, but it just didn’t occur to me that, I can. I tried learning and now I am pretty good at it, but still I cannot put my step down and say - let us dance girls! I know you will say get drunk, dance and once you have done that you will not feel this kind of block in your mind anymore. Well what you consider success, if it doesn’t come out of your sound mind, does it really make any sense? To be totally awake and then experiencing the magic of change is so consuming than anything else that you can ever imagine.
It was hard for me to make my friend understand why I changed my mind after just one drink? It was not so much of an experience as it was a reflection on what you want to gain through drinking. Have you ever done something crazy, something that really is out of line behavior for you? Like say….Enter a class full of 30 students and shout something really crazy to get their attention! Oops sorry I guess I do that very often now. Although, it took me some time to do that without any thought of a back reaction. Say enter an unknown party and do something really stupid like dancing alone on the floor. That "letting yourself go", and hence losing the control is different from losing your brain’s judging capability. What do you say? This may seem a little self contradictory to most, as doing something out of line usually involves breaking so many complexes a person has. And it requires discipline to change oneself, right? hell no! not always.
I remember, as master’s student we were ragged in girl’s hostel. Not serious kind of ragging at all! They asked me to dance. I was fear struck I could hardly move my feet, damn! I did something really funny and ended up being more embarrassed than ever. Not that I don’t like dancing, but it just didn’t occur to me that, I can. I tried learning and now I am pretty good at it, but still I cannot put my step down and say - let us dance girls! I know you will say get drunk, dance and once you have done that you will not feel this kind of block in your mind anymore. Well what you consider success, if it doesn’t come out of your sound mind, does it really make any sense? To be totally awake and then experiencing the magic of change is so consuming than anything else that you can ever imagine.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Why people drink?
Why do people drink? Oh ho! Let me point the finger towards me and ask why did I drink? I had my first and probably the last drink on 21 st Aug 08, on my friend's successful Ph.D. defence! Wow need to keep track of "dare" things that I do in my life right!...assuming that it matters somehow!
I had one drink, my best friend had two. We wanted to know how it feels getting drunk? What happened after that? How did it really feel? Someone wanted to know this and I couldn't tell right away what it was like. Not that I hadn't given it a thought, but because I knew his reaction. It takes time for me to digest my own conclusions sometimes!!
To be true, I found no pleasure in losing balance. I felt dizzy for 10 mins at the most, my friend felt dizzy for may be a little longer. Well aise hi kaha hosh mein rehte hai ke pi ke hosh gawaye! But I really think one ought to try it once atleast! You should know why you don't drink. Let us assume you get baited into having it by some weird crazy circumstance, what will you do then? Get addicted to it?
Find the reason why you don't want to drink! For me it was simple - "I find no pleasure in losing control over my body!" Call that a typical desi girl attitude or whatever! Infact, nobody will ever call that a "typical desi" attitude taking into consideration of how many desi girls around me have it on regular basis without any inhibitions.
Hurray! Ek baar hi sahi I could shout for fun "Talli ho ke girne se seekhi humne gravity!" By that rule, one can learn gravity only if one gets drunk! Beware of those who are good physicists, they must be quite drunkards too! I am a bad one for sure...now what follows what is upto you to decide. ;)
I had one drink, my best friend had two. We wanted to know how it feels getting drunk? What happened after that? How did it really feel? Someone wanted to know this and I couldn't tell right away what it was like. Not that I hadn't given it a thought, but because I knew his reaction. It takes time for me to digest my own conclusions sometimes!!
To be true, I found no pleasure in losing balance. I felt dizzy for 10 mins at the most, my friend felt dizzy for may be a little longer. Well aise hi kaha hosh mein rehte hai ke pi ke hosh gawaye! But I really think one ought to try it once atleast! You should know why you don't drink. Let us assume you get baited into having it by some weird crazy circumstance, what will you do then? Get addicted to it?
Find the reason why you don't want to drink! For me it was simple - "I find no pleasure in losing control over my body!" Call that a typical desi girl attitude or whatever! Infact, nobody will ever call that a "typical desi" attitude taking into consideration of how many desi girls around me have it on regular basis without any inhibitions.
Hurray! Ek baar hi sahi I could shout for fun "Talli ho ke girne se seekhi humne gravity!" By that rule, one can learn gravity only if one gets drunk! Beware of those who are good physicists, they must be quite drunkards too! I am a bad one for sure...now what follows what is upto you to decide. ;)
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